“When I look back on my life I see mistakes, pain and heartache. When I look into the mirror of my sons eyes, I see strength, learned lessons and pride in myself.” A. Dragonblood
Today my son started high school, a big deal and amazing accomplishment in his life as well as my wife and mine. We are extremely proud of him and know that our part in the next four year of schooling will be limited as he needs to prepare for college and a career.
Before school this morning he did however inform me that he was a tad nervous and wanted reassurance that everything was going to be alright. He had asked me several times over the summer how I handled high school and like any good parent, I told him it was great (little white lie) though I would never go back and do it again. Great was a good enough answer until today. Truthfully I was not prepared for high school (right away) and I struggled to find my place socially as well as academically. I spent the entire 9th grade spinning in circles like a mini tornado, a friend that I had spent much of my early life with didn’t even acknowledge my existence, my girlfriend met an older boy who she though would give her better status to the social scene and I had know idea what I wanted to do once I was through with school. All of this was not going to give my son any comfort or reassurance for his freshman year so I kept it on my sleeve and explained that everyone has their own way of dealing with change, explaining that maybe mine was not a good example and if I did do it again I would approach it now with better understanding of what to expect, though I wouldn’t be the man or dad that I am today if I changed my high school experience. I assured him that high school was going to be amazing if he stayed focused and involved in the process, along with his charisma and management skills he will honestly have a brilliant experience. I finished my telling he that looking in his eyes and talking about his concerns made me realize that I honestly wouldn’t change a thing because he is exactly what I needed and wanted and everything will work out that way for him as well. He gave me a hug and told me, he was going to do his best and make me proud. The truth is I am already proud of him, for the man he is becoming and the reflection of the man I have become.